yes! I have to live on
me, my lil sis (Lenlen) and my lil cousin (Hninsi) |
Many a time, I couldn’t think of anything but death
Sometimes, It confused my thoughts so much
So much that I believe nothing would clear off what’s going
on in my brain
Even my favorite gospel song couldn’t wash away my
bewilderment, my fear
Sometimes, I fear so much but didn’t know what I am afraid
of
I am sure I’ll meet my creator once my breathe is taken away
Why am I in constant fear then?
I do not know.
There are times I want to give up totally in my life and
astray like a vagabond, this kind of repetitive thoughts occurred to me very
often.
I frequently asked myself
“Am I the futile one to my family?”
“Does my existence really benefit anyone in one way or the
other?”
“Does my existence really matter?”
“Yes”
I find the answer in the eyes of my siblings and my little
cousins.
Keeping aside the unending love my parents, my relatives
have for me,
Regardless of all my failures in life
My little ones are my happiness, my hope for wanting to live
again
They just adore my smile when I couldn’t buy them toys
They intensely love me
They look up to me
And among everything, they want to be like me when they grow
up
So, I have to live on
I have to be a role model for them
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